44

For the Four that I have lost in the last three years,

thank you for your life, thank you for in Devine time, finding me in my moment with no one else there. 

The brattiest saying of a child, “life is not fair” is so much the truth from an innocent perspective-

I have found in the end of my life span here.

Thank you for being the person to find time for me, friends that alchemically bonded and absconded with mystical experiences like “ride or die” members of a secret Council.

Denouncing all however recalling all those memories by us was comically doubtful.

 The times of experimentation, the self-sabotaging acts; dodging our responsibility to all others besides our clan. Closing the door and barricading all of us in.

Whether it be a simple time at the park or running from cops as Porcelain Gods, or the moments we were singing the shit out of hip hop and rock, times we should have died but got another shot, or chapters of our lives we said nothing to each other, yet our connection remained in a temporal, as well as spiritual realm -will never be forgot.

Thank you, my Four heroes in my epic story for letting me mend with the person you are

so, I can take you with me in my heart and to my final burial plot.

Thank you for knowing not who I was and yet turning to me and saying you can be a part of our clan without any other demand.

So, my Four heroes who have passed too soon and before my life has had the honor to pass through the threshold of rebirth and had gratitude to Death for putting me in his stranglehold.

Behold, I live my life for you now, so I will take a bow for the person I use to be for I have now drown with you with my Four’s passing.

I have the Spirit to carry on, esoteric knowledge and I are one, also a being who is spiritually unmatched and strong because long ago I had you Four as friends, mended my soul then change arranged again.

Four Accepting me for what I was and who I became in my lifetime and I accepting you Four too.  I will always be loyal to all of you. I will shed my physical, astral and etherical body, just as you. 

But Now I must end this with a farewell, until the time we shine brightly again like Venus and through Hell’s ashes we find the balance to transcend into Heaven- as the Phoenix.